Somethings you just never want to learn about yourself...

...like the fact that you are boring and don't have anything to say.

Seriously, I might as well become a mute. My conversation skills have gone right out the window. Today I took Rees to the park. Going to the park ever single day gets pretty dull for me so sometimes I call Toni and she takes pity on me and comes out too. Well, today she came out with us and then I realized I don’t know why I called her because I have nothing to say. There is nothing going on in my life to report, I haven’t learned any new tricks, and though I am finally catching up on current events, I don’t know enough about the topics to have a constructive discussion about any of them. So I have spent all evening mulling over this sad discovery and I have come to a few conclusion.

1) It’s not that I’m boring; I am just not that interesting at the moment. I have tons of hobbies and little thrills that keep me busy all day long. I actually have a hard time going to bed at night because I want to stay up keep playing. The problem is that most of these hobbies are solitary things and not good convo starters. Benjy, bless his heart, does a great job of acting interested in my little ventures. He asks me questions and tries to come up with new ways to do what I’m doing but lets be honest, he is really just humoring me.

2) Part of the problem is that there aren’t that many people where I’m currently living. The whole mommy and me thing doesn’t exist here. I have only met one woman here with kids that is a stay at home mom. When you have something exciting like a job to focus your attention on, who wants to hang out with the other crazy moms and the nutzo kids? My point is lack of people equals lack of entertainment/striking conversation.

3) My honey works a lot. I am in no way complaining about this. As long as he has a job and he likes it, he can work until the cows come home. However, this means we don’t go out and do a lot. There aren’t that many new and exciting experiences to be had while hanging out alone with Rees all day.

4) I have the mommy gene. There are no if, ands, or buts about it. I spend 95% of my time with Rees so he is mostly what I think and talk about. Also, I am convinced when you have kids your intellect shifts. Even though I feel much more stupid than I did while I was in school, I am haven’t lost that knowledge. It has just changed. I no longer spend my days studying the lifespan of human development. I could care less about why Jan Van Eyck’s painting of the Arnolfini Wedding is so profound. My brain now functions in providing balanced meals, making sure checks don’t bounce and that we are maximizing our finances, and whether or not I should immunize my son. All of these things do take thought but they aren’t things that spark amazing conversation (actually, the immunizing part does tend to spark heated conversations among some people). I have been spending a lot of time listening to the lectures Academic Earth but no one besides Benjy is going to want to sit and listen to me ramble about what I learned.

So there is it. Now that I think of this, I should have told Toni all of this. At least it would look like I have something to say. I do feel better after getting my feelings out there or maybe it was the feel good bowl of ice cream I just ate.

What do you guys do to feel interesting and give you something other than your kids to talk about? And by the way, no one is allowed to leave any, “I don’t think you’re boring!” comments. It’s the thought that counts.